OMFG im so disgusted in myself, i was fine for the day only had a diet coke and a small box of popcorn chicken bcos i was out with my friends and they were asking why i wasnt hungry and why i wasnt eating alot so i had to seem convincing that i did eat enough but i wasnt even hungry i was pass that stage after feeling shaky and weak wtf is wrong with me!? i feel like iv put on 3 stone!!
FFS i need to be stronger! i NEED to resist, i rly thought i had it in me!! i was so convinced i could do it i think the nights are the worst for me tho when i try to steer myself away from food especially when iv been restricting more than i should during the day i HAVE to take control! i need to be motivated again
Today iv had breakfast i just woke up and ate it without thinking bcos i was that down with myself i just thought "fuck it, cant get anyworse.." EURGH i hate this x[ NO LUNCH HARDLY ANY DINNER AND EXERCISE EXERCISE EXERCISE HAS TO BE THE PLAN FOR TODAY!!
sorry for the ranting :( x
well on the positive side i get my haircut today,gonna be shoulder-length with layers and a side fringe :)
updates soon girls stay strong